Day 1

Thirty minutes of exercise was achieved today: instead of purchasing a golf cart, I purchased a push cart and drug my bag around the course (the pesky back issues prevent me from using my back-pack straps).

However, a text message from a friend calling me to DQ counteracted any calories burned: I only intended to eat half the small chocolate-covered-strawberry blizzard... but you know what happened.

BUT, I refuse to feel bad about eating a blizzard. Enjoying a DQ blizzard every once in a while is something I refuse to change about my life! Being healthy but denying oneself soft-serve mixed with candy and fruit is hardly an enjoyable life to look forward to.

So, I must accept that blizzards a non-negotiable part of my life. Ideas to try in the future to balance blizzardy goodness with my new, healthy lifestyle: order a blizzard but ask them to use half the ice cream (now I'm the weird order-er), order full blizzard and share, order a full blizzard and eat half and put the other half in the freezer (I've done this perhaps once in my life), order a full blizzard and immediately dump half of it out (but think of all the starving Ethiopians!), I only get a blizzard once per month and the rest of the time I eat small sundaes or cones...

Not sure what the best idea is. Open to suggestions.

As for eating only when I am hungry, and stopping when I am full... it is hard to break myself of the habits of 1) serving large portions of food that I historically have eaten, and 2) feeling I must eat everything I take. I should have had one fajita... but when I served myself, the small portion left in the tupperware looked so lonely, so sad... so I scooped the rest onto my plate and had two fajitas. And after the first fajita, I was content. And halfway through the second, I thought, I am full and I should stop eating. But I didn't.

I am realizing I have a clean-plate obsession. Is that something one can unlearn?